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Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Prayers of my 4 year old

Today I suggested to my little boys that we pray for our baby and birth mother. We were already curled up in the chair in the playroom as we had been reading a few books before naptime. Holden eagerly volunteered to pray, as he often does these days. It was a perfect prayer, praying for "whatever baby God wants to give us", praying for his/her safety and health and some other things. And  then he said the words "And God . . . if you want us to wait, we will." Honestly, my first thought was, that must have been part of Jeremy's prayer last night. From Holden's mouth, I often hear some very mature conversations and prayers, that he often has heard from his daddy. I told Holden how sweet and perfect those words to God were. Later I texted Jeremy about it only to surprisingly find out those words were not from him. Not last night. Or anytime. We haven't verbalized that particular submission to God outloud in prayer to the boys. I believe that submission is there. I would tell you right now that I'm willing to wait and I trust God with the timing and creation of my family. But honestly, if you couldn't guess from recent adoption related posts, I've had in my head that this thing was going to happen quickly. Jeremy doesn't necessarily feel that way. But that's where I've been. Maybe just because quick adoptions are familiar to me. So to hear these somewhat profound words from my 4 year old's mouth . . . And God . . . if you want us to wait, we will. 4 year olds aren't supposed pray that way! That's a big thought about a topic he is very unfamiliar with . . . he has no idea about adoption timelines and waits. I mean, for goodness sake, he asked if our social worker was bringing our baby to us on Friday when she came for our visit! So how did these words come from his mouth today!? By the grace of God, if this is any future vision of the prayers that will be coming from his mouth in years to come, it sure makes his last meltdown not so frustrating. :) Yeah, I added a smiley to keep it light, but I'm not really kidding. I HOPE my sister was right in her response to me today. I hope we are showing him how to trust God and that God can most definitely be trusted. I hope that he is already learning that God is in control of EVERTHING. Even these little things, like our wait. Holden humbled me today. God used him to refocus my thought life and my prayers. Our next baby may not even be conceived yet. And that's okay. Because God is in control of every little and big thing and we just have to be willing to wait on it.

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14

But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, be patient! For it will surely take place. It will not be late by a single day.
Habakkuk 2:3


~The Neaves Nest~ said...

Girl, what a little blessing you have in your boys. What a sweet reminder and goes right along with the best verse you shared with me over 2 years ago.

Daysha said...

Love him and love ya'll.

Amanda said...

What a good message for me. I needed to hear that today.

will + adri said...

Just AWEsome!