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Monday, August 25, 2008

My first prayer for Holden

I came across my prayer journal yesterday that sadly has been completely neglected the past 4 months. And my last entry was May 6th, 2008.

God, I feel a little timid to be excited about this baby! I would love to have him but I’m just unsure of your plan for him and for us. You know that I have been convinced this whole time that it would be a girl. So a boy really does surprise me. Help Jeremy and I to sleep tonight. Give us peace. We trust you and your plan. And God, I would absolutely love and adore this little boy! You already know – better that I know! God, I ask that Jeremiah is healthy. I ask that his birth mother took very good care of him during her pregnancy – that she refrained from drug use and alcohol. I pray that he is 100% healthy and thriving. God, give him a wonderful set of parents and a loving family. I ask that your hand would be on this little boy’s life – that one day he would find you and love you! God, I would love to be an instrument in his life. You know my heart and I don’t know your will. But I truly trust your plan. And I love you!

It’s times like these that I am thankful that I began keeping prayer journals back in high school. And after reading this entry yesterday, I began thinking about God’s possible thoughts as I spoke and wrote these words to Him. I can’t imagine the delight in his heart knowing what was around the corner for us. And as I prayed these words he was just waiting with anticipation to watch it all unfold in a matter of days. (At least that is what I imagine my heavenly father to be feeling.)

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11


Molly said...

Wow, thank you for sharing such a sweet and vulnerable prayer. It's so honest with the feelings of knowing what you want, but also trying to yeild to God's plan. For some reason we thought we were going to have a girl and we ended up with two little guys that we wouldn't trade for a girl anyday. Not that I wouldn't like to have one eventually, but gosh God knew what he was doing! Enjoy your week with that sweet baby!

The Skains Family said...

Your words were so sweet. What an amazing God we serve and I love watching His plan unfold in your family's life. How incredible to think that God already knew that you guys would be Holden's parents before you even knew he was here! He is getting so big and such a cutie!